Have you ever felt the need to cry but couldn’t? Like, REALLY fucking cry? That’s been my life for awhile.. Well this week has been sooo god damn awesome, all of the tears that have been held back finally came pouring out. No, I don’t have the worst life in the world, I actually have it a lot better than most. But when everything goes wrong all at once, life fucking sucks. I don’t know if I’ve ever felt this low.. Ever.. So for the time being, I’ll hide my feelings in front of people. But when I get back behind closed doors, I’m just gonna sit and cry until I can’t anymore..
There’s so much going on in life right now. Not everything is perfect nor will it ever be perfect. I just want something in my life that I know is going to be for sure. School for next year is one thing that is not for sure. Thinking about everything at once is so stressful. I just want this year to be over with and for July to be here so I know what I’m going to do for a year. Whether it’s going to be school or work for a year, preferably school so I can become a nurse, I just need to know.