I tell you I’m happy for you..

But really it’s ripping me apart inside.

#Personal  

So it really takes a lot for me to say this. if anyone has a problem with it fuck off. If you want to talk to me about it and you’re one of my close friends then message or call me. don’t talk shit to other people.

I’m bisexual.

Finally

Some weight is lifted off my shoulders

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Have you ever wanted to tell everyone something but are too afraid of what others think? I know what I feel. I just don’t  want certain people to stop talking to me. I’ve told strangers before people that I’ve known, love, and trust. Why? Why do I have to feel this way.. I can’t wait to go to a new school. Not care what people think about me.

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Why is it that I could tell it to someone I just met at a party but not someone that I’ve known for a long time?  Is it because even though I’ve known and trusted these people for a long time I know that deep down they will still judge me?

#secrets  #judge  #personal  

My Goal

Staying friends

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And i’m back into that dark place where everything you think of makes your stomach turn in ways you never thought it could. Think thoughts you never thought you would. Break down and cry only to find nobody is there to hold you. Sit by yourself and hope you’re just stuck in a bad dream. But reality hits when you get that uncontrollable pain of a breaking heart. It’s sad really that we let it come this far. We want each other so badly but at the same time want different things. I get butterflies when that text pops up but only because I fear of what it says. Things may never be the same again.

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Again really?

I need something.. Don’t really care if it’s alcohol or pot at this point..

#fuck  #personal  

Until you get out of that house

you will always feel that emotion roller coaster.

I cannot wait until you move out. 

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My fortune cookie said “In the end all things will be known”

I don’t know if that is a good thing or a bad thing at this point

#confused  #personal  

If only..

I really wish I had someone to make decisions for me. Someone who would be able to analyze the situation and tell me what to do. I know what would be right, but would it be best?

#personal  #rant  

2 days…

In two days I will officially be done with my sophomore year in college. Officially a Junior and I’m scared shitless.. but

I cannot wait for this weekend. It’s going to be the most fun I’ve had in a long time. A time where I don’t have to care about what anyone is going to think about me. I’m gonna have fun. I don’t normally drink, smoke, or party, anything like that but this weekend I’m gonna have fun. Shit might get crazy! And I’m not gonna care what anyone thinks. Do I ever?

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If you’re offended, sorry I’m not sorry.

Don’t judge me for the things I say now as you have no clue what happened in my life. 

Have you ever felt like if one person was dead you would feel so much better? Like there is one person that you would never have to worry about again? Never feel scared that things might happen to you or your family? If I knew I wouldn’t get caught I’d kill him in a heartbeat. Slow and painful. Make sure he knows what he’s done was wrong. Ask him if  he ever did it to me. And just beat the absolute shit out of him. Fuck him. I pray to GOD that he never touches anyone again. If he even fuckin thinks about hurting my nephew you can bet I will not be quiet. I may have been young last time things happened but I am not fearless. I will stand up for anyone that he hurts. you don’t mess with my Family. NEVER! He comes after me you can bet I would lie and say he tried to do something to me. For my sisters that he hurt I would lie. Put his ass in prison and make sure if he ever got out he would be dead. I have someone who is a million times better than him now. I could never love anyone more. This true person took in my family when he didn’t have to. He shows real love every single day. So fuck this bitch for not being punished for every thing he did.

Fuck you and I hope you rot in hell mother fucker.

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Stressed

There’s so much going on in life right now. Not everything is perfect nor will it ever be perfect. I just want something in my life that I know is going to be for sure. School for next year is one thing that is not for sure. Thinking about everything at once is so stressful. I just want this year to be over with and for July to be here so I know what I’m going to do for a year. Whether it’s going to be school or work for a year, preferably school so I can become a nurse, I just need to know.

#personal  #rant  #stressed  

One of the best things a boy could say..

“It seems as if you are the only sure thing in my life anymore”

#personal  #love  

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