Have you ever felt the need to cry but couldn’t? Like, REALLY fucking cry? That’s been my life for awhile.. Well this week has been sooo god damn awesome, all of the tears that have been held back finally came pouring out. No, I don’t have the worst life in the world, I actually have it a lot better than most. But when everything goes wrong all at once, life fucking sucks. I don’t know if I’ve ever felt this low.. Ever.. So for the time being, I’ll hide my feelings in front of people. But when I get back behind closed doors, I’m just gonna sit and cry until I can’t anymore..

personal rant shitty week school work relationships stressed done



i always had my head wrapped around the idea of getting into a wonderful university and getting a good job and getting married and having a family and being able to support them but for some reason now all i want to do is travel and eat new foods and meet new people and get a tan and buy a one way ticket and not come home

This is the most relevant thing I have ever read

So relevant it’s scary..

(via catholicon)

personal scary Get me away from here

With you

It’s amazing what you’re doing. I couldn’t be more proud. Sitting here thinking about all the memories makes me wonder what the future holds. For both of us really..Always the best of course.

personal I missed you

It’s amazing how attached you can get to something without it even entering your life yet.. I pray Colie and Dan get another chance. They were so happy. Can’t believe this happened..

rant personal RIPbiged

Moving on

I just want to know if I got into the program so I know if I’m staying here or starting a whole new life in another state.. I think I need a new start.. or new¬†different people in my life

personal late night thoughts

I hope you see this..

It’s rather sad how much I miss you and want to be with you. Your company, your smile, the way you make me grin to the point my cheeks hurt. You say I give you that look that makes you want to kiss me.. So why put it off? Give in to it. Trust me, I wouldn’t mind a bit. How could we go from meeting and being extremely close to a text every now and then? I hate it. We have very different views on things but enjoy each others company. I just can’t get you off my mind..

"You don’t have to keep me fallin like this, but it’d sure be cool if you did."

rant personal AVC

True story

So I was freaking out about telling my mom that I’m bi and have a girlfriend. After I finally tell her and I give her a hug she says, “I love you no matter if you’re straight, gay, confused, or … did you go out drinking last night?” haha! HUGE weight lifted off of my shoulders today :)

personal love my mom