And i’m back into that dark place where everything you think of makes your stomach turn in ways you never thought it could. Think thoughts you never thought you would. Break down and cry only to find nobody is there to hold you. Sit by yourself and hope you’re just stuck in a bad dream. But reality hits when you get that uncontrollable pain of a breaking heart. It’s sad really that we let it come this far. We want each other so badly but at the same time want different things. I get butterflies when that text pops up but only because I fear of what it says. Things may never be the same again.